It has been awhile...

I know it has been a long while since I've wrote one of these. I don't really know if thats bad or good. A lot has happened though. Some was for the bad, and we won't get into that. But in the past week, a lot has happened for the good. Let's just say you know who your true friends are when times get rough. Mary Beth and Chelsea have helped me so much in the past week. I've gone through a lot with some close friends, family, etc. They have been helping me build my relationship with the Lord. I do devos with them every night now and I must say it is an excellent way to end the day. I feel replenished. Chelsea usually reads them. When she reads devos, talks to me about my faith, and prays with me...I just look at her and admire her so much. You can really tell she has an awesome relationship with the Lord and Im so thankful God has put her in my life. And Mary Beth...oh mary beth! I absolutely LOVE this girl. I know that I can go to her and she will be there for me just like Chelsea. I know it has only been a week, but I feel like I've gotten closer to her. She is definitely a strong person and I admire that. I went to church with the two of them today. It was the time I've been to church in Marion since I started school. Now I wish I had been going all along. The pastor gave an alter call at the end. We sang a couple songs. But on the second song something really hit me. I became over whelmed and just started crying. I knew that the Lord was calling me to go to the alter and just pray. I have made some bad decisions in my past and I don't want to make them anymore. They are just barriers with my relationship with God. So Im saying goodbye to those barriers and giving God my life all over again. I know it will be hard at times but I know I can always go to the ones that are good influences and the ones that will always be there for me. Mary Beth and Chelsea. I don't think they realize how much I appreciate them. Thank goodness Mary Beth is living right next to me next year. I am definitely going to need her. And Chelsea isn't that far away, and I know she will still be there for me. The situation that happened before all this, yeah it sucked. But now Im starting to wonder if it was God's way of telling me something. I have a good feeling about everything that is happening in my life. I just need to remember to stay strong and surround myself with people that will help me with that. I am really going to miss my girls this summer....I love you guys <3